Hey guys. Things have gotten much better since the week of New Year's. I'm feeling like my old self and have been drawing and forcing myself to stay motivated, which was becoming quite difficult...
But yeah, Monday, December 29, my dog, Max, was brought into surgery to repair a broken hip, but the vet found more to it. He also had bone cancer that spreading rapidly through his leg and pelvic region, so no matter what we did, we would still have the complications of his cancer. The vet tried to remove as much of it as he could by amputating the cancer ridden leg, but even then, he couldn't get it all, but we had a chance at another six months to a year with him.
Sadly, when my siblings and I went to pick him up and bring him home after a long weekend at the vet's, we were brought to a small room, where we waited for a good ten to fifteen minutes, when a gentleman came in a informed us, only thirty minutes before we arrived, Max had passed away in his kennel. We were all kinda shocked at first and almost didn't believe what we were just told, but something had happened a few hours after his surgery, possibly a blood clot, and he didn't make it.
Even though I've never been a huge dog person, it hurt. And it hurt badly. He didn't get to see us all weekend or before he died and I think that's what hurt me most. He probably thought we abandoned him. He'd only ever been away from us for one night before and that was it. I just felt so bad. I still feel bad, but I'm trying not to let it bring me down. I'm thinking positively about it. At least he doesn't have to suffer from cancer anymore.
We decided to have him cremated and we saved his ashes. They're in a beautifully made wooden box with his name on it. That makes me feel better too. I couldn't stand the thought of him just being thrown into some wasteland like trash. So, I'm glad we got to keep him close in some way, you know?
Anyways... Sorry. I just wanted to get that out. Thank you to those who take time to read and to listen. I appreciate all of you so much.
I also wanted to do a special thanks to my Moirail and her Matesprit for being kind enough to be there for me and to listen. They helped me out a lot when I was really feeling down and I don't know what I would do without them. Thanks guys. I love you both!